blindsided

Blindsided

2011-01-16T23:08:00.000-08:00

Today I was blindsided by my blog. I haven't blogged in at leeeeast a year, and I'm so happy I'm on the road to where I want to go. I have to make another blog for school and I've named it http://lightgreenvsdarkgreen.blogspot.com/

Check it out! It's going to be ....skewed.... because I want to get good marks in this class. I'm going to try to be as real about it as I can, but I find that assignments usually get in the way of personal development. Like that time I wrote an essay on the Weakerthans, it just didn't go where I wanted it to go because there were too many criteria to meet. And yes, criteria looks just as weird there as it does to me. I just don't know how to use it properly.

2009-06-02T07:08:00.000-07:00

I got up at about 8:20 today, well that is, Heather got up at 8:20 today and I decided to walk her home. But about two blocks in I gave up because it was so cold! So I got a coffee instead and am in a very good head space. Now I'm looking at university sites to try to find a career that I'll like, I've been thinking a Green Architect. We'll see.

Awwwright

2009-05-30T17:43:00.000-07:00

Ok, I deleted Yelned. I had to, it was eating away at my morality. IF I could get some newer pics I'd put them up, but it's been so long anyways. I don't hate this blog, I just realized that I had become stagnant. I don't think I'll give up on this sucker because without him I wouldn't realize that I want better.

2009-05-26T08:49:00.000-07:00

I hate this fucking blog and I wish last year didn't happen.

THERE I said it.

You know I'm no good

2009-03-12T12:00:00.000-07:00

I'm in a bad spot.

2009-02-04T00:11:00.000-08:00

I can barely function in a society where you have to work at least 25 hours a week.

But i do pretty good for myself still, i can blow like 250 bones every paycheque.

If i ate out less, i could maybe just work 20-15 hours a week.

Wouldn't that be incredible?

Wow we're awesome

2009-01-11T22:20:00.000-08:00

O!

2009-01-11T21:33:00.000-08:00

Lookie lookie what I found!!

You can't see what it says when you hover over it, but it says something like 5, 12, 13, 23, 42

Made my day!

concentration of a turtle

2009-01-04T11:34:00.001-08:00

I was going to blog something last night a 4am, but i forgot to.. It's probably best.

Judgement

2009-01-02T22:27:00.000-08:00

I do things. Sometimes for me, sometimes for others, sometimes for no reason, sometime because I want to. These things look original, these things look scripted. You think you know why I do them. You might. I do what my heart and my head agree on. I realize that this is the only thing that I can be sure of. I realize the danger of this. I realize that if someone is doing something that they believe in, I can't be mad at them. In fact, I love them past what I feel is appropriate. This isn't being non-judgemental. I think it's just the way things are and should be. But this could be the worst thing for the world. I could be the next hitler, I could be the next michael cann. By doing what I believe I could be hurting someone EVEN in my quest to not hurt anyone. I already forget why this was important to me. I'm moving on.

Was it worth it?

Why does my brain work this way?

Do other's? Is that good or bad?

I wonder if the highjackers of 9/11 did it because they believed in it or if they had to. But, I don't care what the answer is, I'm still impressed by them. I can't be mad. If I said that they were wrong I would be just as oppressive as them, as everyone. I wish I could talk to them. I wonder what would happen. Would they kill me? Would I be mad that they did? I don't think so, because I would finally figure out if I'm a pacifist or not. If I let them kill me, We'd both be doing what we thought best. If I fought them We'd also be doing what we thought best. It might not be right, it might not be just. But we could also turn out to be friends. We might kill people together. I might be just as bad as them because I presume that because I feel right, it is right. Who am I to say so? Why can't I stop thinking I'm right?

There must be SOME universal laws that we can agree on. I think that what we can't overcome is the truth. I think what we can't destroy is the truth. You can't destroy me. Or so my tiny brain thinks. But you CAN. In every essence of the word, you can destroy me. You can take what I love and turn it on me, You can rip the flesh from me. You can poison my ideas, you can take what's mine.

I'm not sure why that makes me feel better.

The last samuri

2008-12-14T13:40:00.000-08:00

I wish

I'm in the tub

2008-12-11T22:22:00.000-08:00

Holy heck is it nice to reinstall your compy!

My computer is running SO smoothly since I reinstalled it and therefore got rid of the over 9000 viruses I accumulated with add-ons and torrents. Weoo!

Also, I realize that I'm a little late on the bandwagon, But Amy winehouse has some serious soul and bari lines. I think I'm going to jam out a song of hers with my drummer. WOOTS

mike

The wind

2008-12-09T22:36:00.000-08:00

Mike's Life, Part 2.

I've just entered the second part of my adult development. It's amazing! I've been floating for a bit, but it's hit me right here and now that I've entered the second part. The first part was focused on the element "water". It's been a common theme since my trip to edmonton for new years last year, and It just ended. I found out who drew that painting, I've understood music to an unfathomable level, I've fixed things, broken things, mended things, healed things. The second part is all about air, and I'm going to try to develop my faith along with this. Water being code for grace, air being code for the holy spirit. And connectiveness. I wish I could have a bit more time to really suck in what i've learned, But i gotta move on. Keep focused on the new. I'd just like to thank everyone who's helped. Here's one thing that heralded in the future.

Dear Michael,
It's nine days after your birthday, and you're 22.
Finally you can relate to that millencolin song!
I wish you the best,
You're spending September sober,
Remember how that feels when you go out drinking...or something for your birthday.
If all went well you had a joint birthday with Matthew Hoddinott.
If you still haven't talked to Helga, You should.
Remember that you can do anything. 

Love, Yourself.

(props to Jeans)

Instead of hibernating this winter, I plan on bundling up and confronting the entire world and it's dismal attitude. Oh and look how God provides. I finally fess up to God that I need help financially for this vancouver trip, He tells me that I can do it. The people out there that don't believe in a God or Intelligent design probably don't see how I could put those together, but if we go out for some coffee I promise to do my best to explain. I haven't seen shayne in like...6 years...and I see him yesterday? What a crazy soul. I still remember sitting under a tree in high school thinking about DARING to pursue Niki and listening to shayne talk about how normal people hate when fat people dance. How beautiful and true! I always fucking think about that when i see a fat person dance. Jesus. Also, I think this is my return to blogging.

Ps, to the Unbelievers mentioned above. Does it sound completely crazy that my entire life can be summed up to this exact point? Everything that has happened can be linked to right now and how i am. Simply being banned from 4chan has affected my life. And when I look at this trail of destruction that I've left behind me I realize that Jesus has been on a bulldozer in front of me. Breaking down walls, and destroying what needs to be destroyed. I thought it was me, I thought I could rule this much, but i was just playing with what was left on the side of the highway under a strong desert sun. I'd hate to sound like myself 5 years ago, but how does it feel doing God's will? I'm not saying that it's your fault, or that I believe you are angles, or christains in disquise, I'm just sayng that you've brought me closer to God and I thank you.

Love, Yourself.

PPSS- hopefully I can get better at spelling this year

22

2008-11-28T09:21:00.000-08:00

I'm one year older now since last time I saw you
In case you wanna know, I'm about to say what I'm up to
First of all I'm a sluggard movin' slow in a clumsy way
Some peace of mind is what I want, but that will be the day
I've been going with the flow for too long now, this must end
Running 'round in circles, I've been so far away from myself
Searching for the energy and the time to make a change in my life
Instead of watching it pass by, get something done while I'm alive.

I'm twenty two, don't know what I'm supposed to do
Or how to be, to get some more out of me.
I'm twenty two, so far away from all my dreams
I'm twenty two, feeling blue.

I try to activate myself the best I can
So that boredom won't catch up with me, I've my daily plan
Wake up late, then rehearse a bit with the band, I guess it's cool?
Later when I'm home again I boil a note or two
Then I go to bed that's what I do.

Afraid that I will be weak forever
I can't stay in this shape any longer
My life's just another cliche.

I've been going with the flow for too long now, this must end
Running 'round in circles, I've been so far away from myself
I try to activate myself the best I can
So that boredom won't catch up with me, I've my daily plan

2008-11-19T00:02:00.001-08:00

Isn't the idea that hair grows out of your face just a LITTLE rediculous?

Me so ronrey

2008-11-04T23:48:00.000-08:00

Sorry random people on the internet that looks at this sometimes,

I haven't been blogging.

People are moving on, you know, better sites, Real pen and paper, reading, going outside, stop trolling facebook. One day facebook will die just as myspace did, and I hope I'm out of it before it's too late.

I read a post from an blogger peer michael, and He was saying that is life is controlled by reminders and emails and helpful life hints sent to him by himself via the internet. I wish I could remember when I could remember. Those were the days

I need to go back out to camp to get reconnected with nature. I'm feeling REALLY unconnected to everything. I'm worried that I dissassociate, and I've been worried that I do it since I learned that it could be done.

What's better? Success or failure? Success being your own defined reality and ambitions.....COULD be perceived as failure to another person. Most people are gracious enough to notice that you're making headway, going up the vertical representation of somehow and sometime realizing and fufilling our telos. Our telos, our destiny. Success. Self-proclaimed, self-prophecized, self-help.

I need direction connection ambition sensations devestaion benders electrocution satisfication spelling lessons war courage soy milk destiny teleporation guidance spitz.

Ho boy, I better clean my room.

Ps, Some stupid turd next door got bed bugs, So we gotta get fumagated. ASS

Vundabah!

2008-10-13T19:00:00.000-07:00

Champion gear that I rock, you get your boots knocked
Then attack you like a pit that lock shit DOWN
As I come and freaks the sound, hardcore
but giving you more and more, like ding!
Nah shorty, get you open like six packs
Killer Bees attack, flippin what, murder one, phat tracks
A'ight? I kick it like a Night Flite!
Word life, I get that ass while I'm fulla spite!
Check the method from Bedrock, cause I rock ya head to bed
Just like rockin what? Twin glocks!
Shake the ground while my beats just break you down
Raw sound, we going to war right now
So, yo, bombin
We Usually Take All Niggaz Garments
Save ya breath before I bomb it

I be that insane nigga from the psycho ward
I'm on the trigger, plus I got the Wu-Tang sword
So how you figure that you can even fuck with mine?
Hey, yo, RZA! Hit me with that shit one time!
And pull a foul, niggaz save the beef on the cow
I'm milkin this ho, this is MY show, tical
The FUCK you wanna do? More than Spike Lee's Do
I'm like a sniper, hyper off the ginseng root
PLO style, buddha monks with the owls
So who's the fucking man? Meth-Tical
On the chessbox

Yo, yeah, yo
I leave the mic in body bags, my rap style has
The force to leave you lost, like the tribe of Shabazz
Murderous material, made by a madman
It's the mic wrecker, Inspector, bad man
From the bad lands of the killer, rap fanatic
Representing with the skill that's iller
Dare to compare, get pierced just like an ear
The zoo-we-do-wop-bop strictly hardware
Armed and geared cause I just broke out the prison
Charged by the system - for murdering the rhythm!
Now, lo and behold, another deadly episode
Bound to catch another fuckin charge when I explode

Slammin a hype-ass verse til ya head burst
I ramshack dead in the track, and that's that
Rap assassin, fastin, quick to blast and hardrock
I ran up in spots like Fort Knox!
I'm hot, top notch, Ghost thinks with logic
Flashback's how I attacked your whole project
I'm raw, I'm rugged and raw! I repeat, if I die
My seed'll be ill like me
Approachin me, you out of respect, chops ya neck
I get vexed, like crashing up a phat-ass Lex'
So clear the way, make way, yo! Open the cage
Peace, I'm out, jettin like a runaway slave

Yo
Ya gettin stripped from ya garments, boy, run ya jewels
While the meth got me open like falopian tubes
I bring death to a snake when he least expect
Ain't a damn thing changed, boy, Protect Ya Neck
Ruler Zig Zag, Zig-Allah jam is fatal
Quick to stick my Wu-Tang sword right through ya navel
Suspenseful, plus bein bought through my utensil
The pencil, I break strong winds up against your
Abbot, that run up through your county like the Maverick
Caps through the tablets, I gots to make the fabrics

Are you, uh, ah, uh
Are you a warrior? Killer? Slicin shit like a samurah
The Ol' Dirty Bastard VUNDABAH
Ol' Dirty clan of terrorists
Comin atcha ass like a sorceress, shootin' that PISS!
Niggaz be gettin on my fuckin nerves
Rhymes they be kickin make me wanna kick they fuckin ass to the curb
I got funky fresh, like the old specialist
A carrier, messenger, bury ya
This experience is for the whole experience
Let it be applied, and THEN DROP THAT SCIENCE

My my my
My Clan is thick like plaster
Bust ya, slash ya
Slit a nigga back like a Dutch Master Killer
Style jumped off and Killa, Hill-er
I was the thriller in the Ali-Frazier Manilla
I came down with phat tracks that combine and interlock
Like getting smashed by a cinder block
Blaow! Now it's all over
Niggaz seeing pink hearts, yellow moons
orange stars and green clovers

This is about the best thing the internet has ever made.

2008-10-06T22:21:00.000-07:00

mmmmmmmmm

2008-09-25T12:41:00.000-07:00

I found the itunes Jazz station.

OMG, it streams the BEST stuff! After this blues thing, I might get my chops back up and start playing some YAZZ.

Mmmm, jazz, fall, and spagetti. mmm

2008-09-24T12:36:00.000-07:00

Click on this

And be amazed.

Right now, I don't have a lot of money. It's cool, Cause I spent it all travelling, and I think that's the best way to go about it, But being poor until I get some paycheques teaches me two (2) things.

1. It's kind of fun to be frugal. (try it!)

2. Poor people have bad nutrition. This really sucks. It seems like the ENTIRE world is backwords and the stuff that is good for you costs the most (except for banana's. They're pretty cheap). To be healthy, you have to have money. I haven't gone to McDonalds for at least 5 years, and I'm so happy. It makes me sick that my parents used to take me there as a treat. It makes me even sicker that I convinced them to do it.

rrrrrrr

OMG

2008-09-24T00:55:00.001-07:00

Monkeys and mental hospitals

2008-09-19T22:32:00.000-07:00

Yar, Happy Talk like a Pirate day yesterday. I love that holiday. Every September is a wonderful thing. We should have a pirate party next year in honor.

I'm having a REALLY good time with life lately. I'm on a month of Soberness (not zero-tolerance mind you) and I'm have an excellent time. It's good to connect to yourself again, and realize that I can have a VERY good time being sober. It's just boring sometimes.

But, I've been reading some PUA stuff, and all I can say is that being confident is really fun. It makes me smile a lot, and gets me into hillarious conversations.

/blog?

2008-09-03T18:33:00.001-07:00

I'm in love with the Dub side of the Moon album.

Ohhhhh yeahhhhhh

I want to start a blues band. Know any cool blues songs?

2008-09-03T12:12:00.000-07:00

I'm being a downloading monster! I also moved into my new room, And although smaller, i think I fit better in it. I've collected some cool art lately, But I don't think I really got most of the cool stuff in the picture here.

Green

2008-08-31T13:21:00.000-07:00

I lost this sweater before I went to camp. If anyone knows where it is, I would really like to know because I really liked it because it was green.

how to deal

2008-08-28T22:36:00.000-07:00

I'm so amazed at how ashamed I am of myself for LOVING sappy movies.

I laughed so hard for two reasons, I really enjoyed the ending, and the embaressment of really enjoying a mandy moore film.

BIG

2008-08-24T21:29:00.000-07:00

Never seen before!

2008-08-23T10:10:00.000-07:00

I found some camp pictures on flickr, and here you go. Mike the Naturalist. These people KICKED my ass. We took the grey owl trail on bikes in less than three hours. I slept for almost a day after that.

It's the return of the cobra fighter 3!h

2008-08-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

Hello my dear sweet bloggers,

I'm back. I'm not going to tell you my camp stories because I wouldn't know where to begin, and I didn't take many pictures.

It was good and bad. That's really all there was to it.

I gained a lot, and lost a lot. I don't know if I'm better off than when I started, but with my head full of knowledge I guess it can't be all bad. My kive for nature, walking, and getting up early are things to NOT be labeled in the bad category. I'm loving tbat new side of myself.

I wanted to go to bc and edmonton this summer,

But it just looks like I'll make it to edmonton.

So, once I know when I'm coming, I'll let everyone know. I'd love to see those that read this blog, and those that don't.

(I have to work on my blogging skills again)

Love, Michael

2008-06-19T23:25:00.000-07:00

Michael Moski was telling me that if you google search his name, a lot of stuff from my blog pops up.

Well Michael Moski, here's more search results!

Michael Moski is a gentleman and a scholar.

Michael Moski is called "moe" by me. This was the name that I WAS TOLD he went by in high school. Sometime in between then and now he decided to go to Michael, knowing full well and good that I had trademarked the name in our social circle. Michael and Mike are copyrighted...all rights reserved.

It's just too confusing to have two michaels in the circle! But, I have been called Michael C a lot lately, and I kind of like the ring. I also like the ring of MICHAEL MOSKI. So what is a man to do?

I vote me as Michael C or Mike or Michael.

You can have Michael Moski.

There!

Oh, and ps, Michael Moski, I'm working on the sublet thing. I think you're under the impression (because of eric's well intentioned encouragement) that it's a sure thing. This is not true, and I've been nothing but honest with you. It's something that must be dealt with carefully and with much thought and with the proper paperwork. I'm setting the wheels in motion, but the fees and the whole thing about..."what about after aug 17th" and my option of spending a weekend or two in winnipeg are things that I have to think through.

I hope that it all works out with little or no effort required by my own busy self!

And I hope that you and eric understand that I'm 50/50 about living in another 3 bedroom or instead going to a bachelor. It's not just a decision that involves me!

ARGG!

2008-06-13T12:06:00.000-07:00

I was reading stuff and watching this

And that video is the most sense I've seen in a while. I've been looking into the Israel vs Palestinian debate and was...shocked...at how much of this I'm blissfully unaware of.

I've gone to both sides today, and I know realize why it's so hard to a) be on a side, and b) stay on a side. The bottomline is that both sides are justified and completely in the wrong on so many levels. But that youtube clip kind of puts it into perspective too, Is there really two sides to this? As long as that man can keep yelling in his everyday life, some jews just want to live in peace and NOT have a jewish state!

I'm so lost. What are they fighting about again?

Is this really 2000 years of rivalry all pent up and needing a reason? Are the Jews mad at Palestinian rule? From what I know, all occupations by foreigners were the direct result of disobeying God. But still they break every commandment that was given to them by moses. The Kingdom of Heaven as I see it will come VERY shortly when the Jewish "state" actually upholds God's law.

Could Christians bridge this gap? From what I can guess, That Rabbi in the video wouldn't include Christians as one of their enemies, well at least if he puts arabs and muslims on the same list. I don't really see any tension between us zombie lovers and our parent faith. If us Christians could extend the law of love to muslims especially (our cousin faith) that is required by our discipleship (and just good manners), maybe we could be the bridge that connects our faith similarities.

For crying out loud, Muslims accept Jesus as a prophet, and the Jews killed him! Which one should our faith be more tolerant of in general and in our culture? Not that I'm saying we should reverse our friendship with our parent faith. The Jew's story wouldn't be complete without Jesus dying the way he did, and the story would make no sense if Jesus himself wasn't jewish.

So, I'm going to take my own advice, and be more tolerant of mormons.

nice sub. way.

2008-06-12T22:38:00.000-07:00

I was looking at this

And thought to myself,

The edmonton transit system is beautiful. Every stop is a new world! I still remember the first time adventuring by myself in downtown edmonton when I found the LRT. It was amazing! I remember thinking, "am I allowed to be down here?"

Then I remember seeing GIANT chandellers, and was like, I don't care. This is awesome. THEN THERE WAS A ROLLERCOASTER! It was the happiest day of my life. I also remember writing a very interesting LJ post about my adventures that night. It was deep.

I dunno. Maybe it's because Winnipeg doesn't have a LRT system.

Almost done.

2008-06-12T00:02:00.000-07:00

This is by far one of the worst torrents ever, But then again....It is like...12 gigs.

I refer you to this post

I was talking about how I was torrenting XMEN the animated series. (fav fav fav evr)

And it's now at 95.4%!!!!

Woot! I just hope it finishes before camp.

2008-06-08T09:17:00.000-07:00

Holy moly those locks are CUT. I hate having long hair, but I want to get my dreads back one of these days! Still, I look A LOT more approachable with shorter hair. DIY haircuts are the best.

Lost in time

2008-06-08T09:09:00.000-07:00

Today I (unwillingly) time traveled!

I Woke up at 6, 9:14, 9:15, 1:37, and 10:14! I was waiting to go to church, And so when I saw 1:37, I was disappointed! Lucky for me, I time traveled back just in time to take a shower and go!

2008-06-06T13:00:00.000-07:00

I wrote a new song

I wrote a new song

I wrote a new song,

It's on my myspace and facebook.

(sung to the blues)

Michael Moski is a spy.

2008-06-04T21:50:00.000-07:00

I just wrote a letter to the editor of the winnipeg free press. It said,

Michael Moski is a spy.

I hope it gets published. Cause this is serious breaking news.

Wow, You're pretty well set up for a 21 year old

2008-06-04T21:05:00.000-07:00

I am, aren't I! I just really like where I am right now.

I was bored at home tonight, so I took off adventuring with lucille, my guitar. Oh, and Jimmy tagged along too. We found a real like place behind the lege building and got to know one another. After Jimmy disappeared somewhere, Me and lucille played a lot of songs together, Including a blues that we wrote. It's very shapely.

After another walk, we met a group of 23ish year olds who were drinking by the river. Drinking wine, out of a box. So they were pretty cool. We hung out for a while, while I played for them by the river as they drank and had a good time.

It was a pretty nice night. I should go out entertaining/busking more!

2008-05-31T00:17:00.000-07:00

I know jeanz already posted it,

But I'm in love with the shat all over again.

I want to share with you a story,

I was fishing once, with william shatner. He was out of character mind you, but still amazing. We were fishing and he was telling me about these fish. These fish that you can't catch! They'll bite your fishing line and not let go! They won't bite the bait or hook, they'll only bite your line and not let go. You can't get them off, and they all team up and fight with you and tug on your fishing rod till they overpower you and pull your rod into the water! These crafty fish are called "cling ons".

(paraphrased from a boston legal i saw)

I just can't get behind that

2008-05-29T21:41:00.000-07:00

I was in movie village the other day, and they were playing the william shatner album. I LOVE that album. It made my day.

OMG SHOES

2008-05-28T00:17:00.001-07:00

Michael says:
sigh. i'm up way too late
AnaBot says:
ya me too
AnaBot says:
but i love my shoes
Michael says:
hahahaha

yelned

2008-05-26T21:50:00.000-07:00

Hey ho,

I've made a new blog, It's about the adventures of our foreign roommate, Yelned.

http://yelned.blogspot.com/

I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

uhggg

2008-05-23T00:54:00.000-07:00

I'm usually fine when I get these can't sleep, overclocked brain, thinking about death kind of moods in the daytime. But they really stink at night!

Ahh what was that word!

2008-05-22T11:43:00.000-07:00

One of my favorite memories of zoe was when she was telling me about a word that she made up. She really did love the little stuff in life, and she made up a word for that feeling that you get when you're in limbo in between one action and another. For example, from the time that you get up to the time that you remember that you have to be somewhere or do something. That blissful time that you're just so happy in your bed. Or when a movie ends and you're just sitting in the theater looking at the credits just so happy that it was such a good movie, THEN all of this social drama happens like, we gotta go, lets get out of here, everyone's standing up, should we wait for people to leave before us...It's something like a living afterglow, the state of peace that comes before we're Flung somewhere else.

You can train yourself to value and appreciate these moments, but you can't make them any longer than they are. They are a gift.

(I'll have one of these moments right now after I send this email, Until I realize that I have to Shower, Clean the house, Do whatever. It's gone much too fast)

Elmo

2008-05-18T18:40:00.000-07:00

Last night I saw my first Alpha female.

It was pretty incredible. I thought that it was only a male thing, but this girl was an alpha female. Not in the sense that she was commanding.....I'm kind of comparing the idea to alpha male. I think of alpha male, and come up with ....well I dunno, James bond(s), Brad pitt, The idea at least. But an alpha female isn't like that, she does the same thing though, enhances the strong female parts that are attractive. She was wearing an elmo shirt, that's why we call her elmo. She commanded every man (and some girls) in the pub, myself included. I've never felt helpless like that before.

Well, I found it very interesting. (I should've taken a picture)

Now the reason we were there was that the solutions were playing, and they're just super. It dawned on me last night that they don't have any originals, but the arranging that goes into the classic funk tunes makes me forgive them. We had a pretty large crowd there too, friends came out of the woodwork.

And my grandma is in the hospital, Her ticker isn't the most ticky of the tickers. I think things are going to be fine, but she's said that she doesn't want to be resusitated (sp). Which.....is good for her, but not really that cool for us. She says that she doesn't want to die twice, And I don't really blame her.

She's been bugging me for a while to show her some of my music, And I finally did today, Of just some old recordings, And she was bopping and hopping. She had no idea that I was as good as I am, and I was trying to tell her that it's not that big of a deal but she wouldn't have it.

I joined a ska band, first practice is tomorrow.

Oh, side note, 17's too young for me right? lol, lets get a poll going here

2008-05-18T00:17:00.000-07:00

Jebus BLOG! WTF

2008-05-16T12:48:00.000-07:00

I fucking KNEW that bust meant a head piece of a sculpture. I swear, You'd think that women think that men think about breasts ALL the time. Which they'd probably be right in saying, But Jesus, it doesn't mean I don't know what words mean and in which context to use them!

oh noes!

2008-05-12T23:10:00.000-07:00

The admin of losttheories.com shut down the site citing

I got tired of babysitting this site (trolls, whining e-mails to me, complaints, demands to ban so-and-so, and the like). It’s been fun. Go play somewhere else. — Jeff

This was an amazing site with some amazing contributers running the show. There were some really amazing literary critics on there too, who'd give an analysis the day after a new episode aired. It was nice to be in a group of like-minded people who'd watch and rewatch the episodes like I would, scouraging the backgrounds for easter eggs.

The site was very trolly, but they were all pretty funny. Drive by negative rating were a bummer, but most people offered a lot of good ideas.

Anyways, RIP www.lost-theories.com,

I don't know what I'll do with my mornings.

I'll probably start conquer clubing again

Kissy Kissy

2008-05-09T08:48:00.001-07:00

CAT CAT CAT

It's pretty fun having a cat. We're catsitting for like 4 days, so we get the best of both worlds i guess.

I've been REALLY sick for the last few days, Although I'm much better now, It's lingering longer than anticipated.

But CAT!

2008-05-08T10:29:00.000-07:00

I'm torrenting one of my favorite tvs shows of all time,

Xmen, TAS

I'm so pumped for it! it's like 12 gigs of goodness!

It's going to take 36 days i'm sure, but I'm game.

2008-05-02T10:58:00.000-07:00

I recorded some stuff with Ronnie yesterday, It's up on myspace if you wanna hear it. ...../michaelcann

I like it? It's fine. I have no recording gear, so I kind put chorus or delay on everything to make it sound interesting. Probably not a good idea.

2008-04-29T12:49:00.001-07:00

You know what's sweet about not being a big act?

No one pirates your stuff.

Harm hharrrmmm

2008-04-24T14:18:00.000-07:00

I had an idea in the shower,

Does coping/dealing with problems with drugs or alcohol cope/deal with those problems?

People always look down on using drugs to cope with problems, but my question is, Do they? Cause that's sweet!

My thinking is that what's Less healthy, Getting hammed or Constantly thinking about something.

When I get attached to things I LOVE to beat myself over it. Not that I know I'm doing it, exactly, But there's always some fun involved in self-sacrifice.

For example, I was having a hard time getting through the the one year aniversery (sp) of a good friends death. I shrugged off my girlfriend and had a bottle of wine in rememberance.

I felt amazing! Well, not good, due to the wine, But I really felt like my mind could let go after sitting down and having a drink with the memories.

I do propose that drug and alcohol use can be used as a crutch, Oh believe me I know, But I find that when used in the proper context with the mental framework of letting go and moving on it can be a wonderful tool.

Altered state. That's a funny way of putting it.

Aren't altered states almost always good? A new viewpoint, a new sense of awareness. The interconnectivity of it all.

Anywhoven,

Michael

Yay for high posts

2008-04-23T00:05:00.001-07:00

Okies,

Poll time.

Would you rather,

1) Work two full time jobs, have no life, be super tired, but rich?

2) Have one job like everyone else, have a life, have enough money, (maybe throw in some time for a BF or GF)

hmmm??

Michael

Enter random blog thought.

2008-04-16T20:51:00.000-07:00

The people that I love the most in my life are the ones that get my references.

How could you be intimate with someone (m or f) when they don't get your references? It's like inside jokes, but with MORE history. And funnier.

Like, "chill winston"

I'll marry the girl that tells me that.

I hope I can catch this one before it goes to facebook,

2008-04-14T23:16:00.000-07:00

Urg!

Life's been hectic lately because of a girl. I find that they tend to do that. In my experience.

And, I have no mula whatsoever.

But, I've got my health, love of life, and a bike. So i'll be fine. I just hope this girl thing works out so that I have someone to snuggle. Then I'd be set.

Also, Why are friends never happy when you move onto another girl"friend"? Well, the good friends are, I guess that's something that really defines the difference. If someone takes the time to wonder what's good for their friend?

Speaking of good friends, I'm bummed that I'm leaving a few behind for the summer. But, I'll have Helga at camp with me, So we can get to know each other again and she can be wonderful.

It's only 7 weeks! That's not that long. I can't remember the last good thing I did with 7 weeks.

I'm really thinking about pitching the "travelling workshop person" to camp. April, on a scale of 1 -10, how plausible is this for you? Also, any other workshop people should let me know if they want to come to the best place in the world for a week or two in exchange for food and shelter.

Uh,

Michael

Shh party!

2008-04-11T13:49:00.000-07:00

It's really quiet on blogger lately.

I made a bet with Maurice, and I lost. So i owe him two dollars. I sent him a cheque with some inappropriate stuff in the memo. It's going to be good.

ANNNDDD ...Well, i got the camp job. So I'll be gone for 7 weeks in the summer. (note: bloggers and wowers might notice)

So, I've got a job until NEXT July. Then I might have a camp job again. What's with this stability? If only I was financially stable. That'd be sweet. I'm going to apply again at Panago for some pizza cooking shifts. I REALLY LIKE to cook pizzas. I don't even care what the wage is. Just too buff up my pay stubs. Yay life!

I've been noticing that if I already have something in my head, I get it. I wouldn't go so far to say...manifesting? More like...Positive thinking and assurance. But it's good.

Michael

Beeeeeep

2008-04-06T21:27:00.000-07:00

In honor of the robot party,

Me and eric made a video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lLYD_-A_X5E&feature=related

Hope you like it!

Beep boop.

2008-04-06T20:14:00.000-07:00

So the robot party was pretty fun!

Michael Moski's costume was by far the best though. It was incredible. But even Dr. Maurice made an appearance!

We're gonna have another themed party in a month or two.

Pics are on FB,

Bye!

yippie!

2008-03-31T23:14:00.000-07:00

I just got an email from "the meeting place", the church I'm auditioning for. Normally that wouldn't interest me, but a lot of GREAT musicians come and go, and it'd be a great networking place. Anywho,

Hey Michael,

WOW..... where did the month go? Really sorry for the lack of communication. Quite a bit of upheaval and changes lately.. but things are settling down quite nicely.

We here at the Meeting Place were really impressed with your audition, and we'd like you on the team! We still need to sort out our schedules for practices, but other than that we'd like to start right away. Just hit me back and we can begin to plan and figure out what works best.

Thanks again Michael!

~db~

DREWBROWN

themeetingplace

Sounds cool eh?? I really need to be jamming with people more, so I'm pretty pumped about this! What do you guys think?

Michael

Ya mama got a glass eye with a fish in it!

2008-03-30T01:04:00.000-07:00

Hey blogging world.

Just wanted to say that I'm doing well.

Sorry if that's weird.

Michael

news flash, The cycle is broken!!

2008-03-27T11:30:00.000-07:00

A says:
man i couldn't eat a burger yesterday. the acid made me so sensitive to how it was once....alive
A says:
like long after the trip; i was just looking at the burger
A says:
and i felt i was really imposing on that cow!
B says:
hahahaha
B says:
hahahahahaha
B says:
hahaha
B says:
you were imposing on that cow!
A says:
i know!

Aha ha ha!

2008-03-25T22:00:00.001-07:00

The internet is no longer safe. There is an intruder. Beware.

Boys and girls in internet land, I need your internet sleuth abilities.

We are not safe anymore.

-michael (who is a little scared)

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Now playing: The Postal Service - The District Sleeps Alone Tonight
via FoxyTunes

beyond the grey sky

2008-03-24T22:33:00.000-07:00

Don't give up the fight to stay alive and even if you have to
Find the reason of another's pain if they lose you
If not for your self then those around who care like I do
One day you'll see the clear blue sky

I don't listen to lyrics much, they just seem to get in the way of sweet guitar parts/solos most of the time. But words are beautiful, and sometimes sweet riffs can't capture "all" of the range of emotions. But, still. My ears are like, 10% geared to lyrics, so when I like lyrics, they really mean a lot to me, I guess. Or the song is just simple enough that I can spend some time listening to the melody line. It's always nice to know at least SOMEONE else felt that way at some time.

michael michael if he can't do it someone else will

2008-03-24T00:07:00.001-07:00

"A canner exceedingly canny,
One morning remarked to his granny,
"A canner can can
Anything that he can,
But a canner can't can a can, can he?"

IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII'm squiching my bumblebee

2008-03-20T11:48:00.000-07:00

I've sent out applications to my two ideas for this summer. Go work at camp and make money and be happy, Or stay in the city and work and make money and be happy. It's a win win! I reallllly want to stay in the city this summer, cause I'm downtown, and blah blah blah. But I reeeallly want the naturalist job. Like, come on. That's a sweet gig. So, whatever happens, sweet!

-Michael

My standard break from life

2008-03-16T19:00:00.000-07:00

I've got a regular problem so my standard break from life is in order.
I'm having trouble making sentences, I'm older but I don't feel any smarter.
See, I don't know what I said to you. But now you're pissed at me, well, I guess I deserve it.
I wish I could waste my time without wasting all your time.

I try to leave a good impression but it's hard when my obsession is in a pint glass.
And when you're only 21 it's not attractive to complain about your sore back.
I can bitch until my eyes turn blue, but you're in love with someone new.
I guess you deserve him.
I wish I could waste my time without wasting all your time.

You say I'm fixable, A classic case, A lack of will.
I say I don't wanna try, I'd rather sit here all night.

I've got a motivation problem so my standard break from life is getting longer.
I spent over 30 hours in this bed in two days, I guess I could have phoned her.
But now that I'm awake I'd rather take a drink and walk down to the lake,
and beg the sky for lightning bolts.
I can waste my time without wasting all your time.

You say I'm fixable, A classic case, A lack of will.
I say I don't wanna try, I'd rather sit here all night.

Michael is

2008-03-16T00:11:00.001-07:00

FUCK

come on!

2008-03-13T14:13:00.000-07:00

I MISS PEOPLE FROM EDMONTON.

Michael

Oh internet.

2008-03-12T22:23:00.001-07:00

Busted and old - Arrow Catcher

New and shiny - Dramatic Hamster

Newer and still shiny - Kill bill dramatic hamster

Better yet! - german kid vs dramatic hamster

I swear, the internet never gets old.

Michael

I repeat

2008-03-11T23:27:00.000-07:00

I don't understand women.

Reason #378,345.

Why would someone comment "you're so pretty! lol oh my god!" on a picture that had a huge lens/sun flare on it of someone's back. Are they admiring the girl's behind? Or do they just know that the girl is pretty, and assuming that she probably looked super from the front too? IT DOESN'T MAKE ANY SENSE. WHY?

michael

RED UZI GANG

2008-03-09T21:10:00.001-07:00

/blog

I haven't blogged for awhile. There's been a certain video game that took over my life for a couple of days there. I plan to spend less and a more "healthy amount" playing it from now on.

We had a huge party at our place. It got a bit messy at the end there. But i had a good time, and i think a lot of other people did too! I really feel like people are getting over they're internal drama and are just being cool again! Or i'm just missing the undercurrents. Whatever.

I think I have to get my other two wisdom teeth out.

/endblog

Tommorow at 2 with Jill

2008-02-28T12:43:00.000-08:00

I've got a "financial Health Check" tomorrow. I phoned up my local bank, cibc, and the offer free advice, so heck, why not. I don't know anything about investing, so it's pretty sweet. Being in a field that doesn't offer any benefits or pensions, I know I have to watch myself. I can see myself making some major purchases in the next few years, like a car maybe, or a house for sure. So I thought, Hey why not. Let's pretend we're an adult and know what the word investing means. It's going to take discipline and effort, but I think it'll be really good for me to not just live payday to payday. My crazy crazy goal is to put 20% away every payday, 10 to start my investing, and 10 for bulk savings. In addition to increasing my loan payments. So, I'm looking at a 30% pull. It shouldn't be thaaaaaaat rough. I mean, I do alright. I just can't go on benders every weekend. Which is probably best for me.

a bunch of things

2008-02-26T11:08:00.000-08:00

BLOG.

My father and I are getting tattoos together in July. I'm really excited! He's getting an eagle, and I'm getting a memorial piece done for my friend Zoe. destinyisnow.spaces.live.com/ For more info on that wonderful girl. I really like my idea for it, and I'm hoping that the artist is just amazing. It will be very nice to have a visual representation of what I carry around with me anyways. My dad wants an eagle because that's what he's going to try to "come back as". We'll have to be on the lookout for eagles.

I've had coffee dates with you-know-who and I think it's really settled down to the point that we get along great, we have completely different "life" standpoints, and there's not a whole lot to talk about anymore. I really do hope we can be friends, because we have an awesome time together. Laughs Laughs Laughs.

In other news, I'm supa pumped for summer. Man! Beautiful winnipeg in the summer, the forks, tennis right beside my house, pool in my apartment building, my new bike that I have to work on, swimming in birds hill, sunsets, downtown walks, shorts! It's going to be wonderful. I just have to find a summer job that makes me mula but doesn't waste all my time.

So, there's this worship team i'm "meet(ing) and greet(ing) and audition(ing)" for, and they're being super lame and pushing back the date again and again and again. It was for the beginning of February, but it's been pushed back to this week, and I still haven't heard anything. March is just around the corner. We'll see what happens.

Marma #2

2008-02-17T21:48:00.000-08:00

2008-02-17T12:59:00.000-08:00

If there is any proof of God, here's all the proof I need.

http://drmcninja.com/page.php?pageNum=43&issue=5

I hate Marmaduke.

2008-02-16T23:45:00.000-08:00

I hate this god damn dog. There hasn't been a comic about this freaking dog EVER that has been funny. In dishonor, I present the first in hopefully a long series,

Mucho love

2008-02-12T12:19:00.000-08:00

Really. Now, don't get me wrong. I really do like some people here in winnipeg. My life would be far from what it is now without them. But these guys from edmonton need props. If I had to define someone that's actually living a life that I'd admire, I'd have to point you in the direction of maurice and ovencleaner. They aren't activists, I'm not even too sure they have a point. But they make this world a better place by just being themselves. They aren't feeding beggars and whatnot, in fact I'd be hard pressed to tell you just HOW they are making the world a better place, but I would defend my position until pigs flew. It's like a joke that only I get, and I always forget the punchline when I try to tell someone.

word word word

2008-02-10T22:44:00.000-08:00

I need lyrics to a song I wrote. I can't write lyrics. I need to find myself a bachman. If no one names/makes lyrics for the song I wrote, it's going as it's working title name, fudgey dudgey ding dong.

hubba hubba ding dong

2008-02-07T17:01:00.001-08:00

My favorite thing about the internet is seeing my new friends talking to Maurice.

oh god

2008-02-05T23:48:00.000-08:00

In a moment of weakness, I sent the email.

I think that i've made this email clear and consise, an email of honesty and guilt. Without blame or theology, rationalization or bias. For better or worse, it's the truth. You now have a better understanding of your world.

That's just a little sample. I adopted the virtue of honesty in edmonton, and it found it's way through my entire life except for the one place it was really needed. When you do something that you have to, you don't feel bad, you don't feel happy, you just feel normal. Let the lord of chaos rule.

Letting someone know the truth really sets something out of your hands. It's not up to you to make them think a certain thing. They have all the facts, and really, it's up to them. If they're angry, that's their problem. If it makes peace, it's their problem. The truth will set you free, but i think that phrase should finish with the fact that it can condemn you just as easily. In the end, it's already happened, and you can't do anything to change it.

2008-02-02T23:57:00.000-08:00

I'm so drunk right now. Natives are shoooooting off fireworks those crazy bastards. I saw hugh tonight i hope everyone made it home tonight

in like a lion, out like a lion?

2008-01-29T12:51:00.001-08:00

BRR!

RR

2008-01-25T22:55:00.000-08:00

I almost lost my head today. Most people think I'm this mellow guy, but in fact, it's averaged out by some serious rage attacks. I don't show them to many people....

But yeah. I don't get why shit bothers me so.

On the plus side, Elliot Smith seems to know how I feel. Unfortunately, I think he offed himself.

I'm sure this will be one of those "I'll look at this tommorow" kind of thing. But it always feels real when it's happening doesn't it? Kind of like it's real.....

Spolier Alert

2008-01-25T12:40:00.000-08:00

My week is going from bad to awesome in a wave of HUZZAH!

http://spoilerslost.blogspot.com/2008/01/episode-401-beginning-of-end-5-sneak.html

FIVE sneak peeks at the first eppy. MMMM mmmm.

DON'T watch if you're "one of those people" aka, who doesn't want to know. Who wouldn't? It's not like it's the whole episode, it just gets you all pumped up and stuff.

2008-01-24T23:42:00.001-08:00

HOLY SHIT

We ARE WOLVES ROCKED MY SOCIES OFF!!!! LOL!!!

HOLY SHIT!

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Now playing: We Are Wolves - T.R.O.U.B.L.E
via FoxyTunes

I think I'm John Locke

2008-01-24T16:22:00.000-08:00

Nuff said. I can't wait for lost to start again. It is by far the best show ever. I know everyone just says that but here's why:

1) Introduces Cultural and Scientific Ideas and Theories, making mainstream media smarter and more knowledgeable.

2) Plot that isn't episodic. There's the story, and it's done when the story is told.

3)Denied instant gratification. Many people quit watching because they refuse to wait for answers. What does that say about our culture?

4) hot women / men. It's a bonus.

5) actual character development.

6) guns n shit!

7) Tasteful religion debates

YAY!!!

2008-01-24T15:07:00.000-08:00

I got laid off today!

Weoo!!!

It was done over my immediate boss's head. Which I find awesome because that means the upper up people really didn't like me. Sweet! I hate big corporations. The official reason was "unpredictable tardiness and attendance". That's a pretty sweet reason. Basically, because I ride the bus, I was laid off. And I'm getting a car in February!

"and in that moment he realized, at last, something is happening."

Now I have time to play my new guitar, and maybe pursue a girlfriend. And maybe gig?!?!?

I think the universe has big plans!

They wrote back!

2008-01-24T09:28:00.001-08:00

pling pling pling

2008-01-23T21:46:00.000-08:00

OHHHH I don't have access to that!

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Now playing: bright eyes - first day of my life
via FoxyTunes

Do you have (enter condition here)??

2008-01-22T22:50:00.000-08:00

Finally! Your suffering is at an end!

Phzer, the makers of such wonderdrugs as Zoloft and Skeetz, have discovered a drug that cures a rare, but common condition called "Post-Piss Pickle Drip".

Many Americans suffer from this condition AND THEY DON'T EVEN KNOW IT.

Just take one a day orally, and the condition is cured! It's so gentle on skin, even a baby can use it.

Just look at our happy customer!

Whatever we do, whatever we try,

2008-01-21T22:16:00.000-08:00

Our parents will still be thrice as cool as we ever will be.

I was talking to my "older" boss today about how crazy me and my roomies are. I was telling him all about house airsofting, random nerf gun fights, sword fighting.........

Then he told me about how when he was younger he was big into super soakers. And I said "yeah! that sounds sweet"

BUT then he told me that they used to fill them up with blue cream soda and spray hookers with them until the pimps would chase them.

They stopped when one of their close friends got his knees shot out.

Wow.

Girls

2008-01-20T22:17:00.000-08:00

Ho man.

So, here's the deal. I want to come clean to my ex about smoking pot throughout most of our relationship. She didn't know because, without a doubt, she would break up with me if she found out.

So, there's two parts to it. 1) I want to tell her how silly she is. (but nicely and in a pro-pot sort of way) This may or may not change her uptight ill-informed biased opinions, but it'll do something, i'm sure. If the result is to move on from me even faster, that's just as fine as well.

And 2) There's something in it that I need to do to move on from her as well. It's not fair that EVERYONE knows except her.

BUT she's declined my coffee offer. We had coffee once to talk about things, but I think that she thinks I want to get back together.

Opinions anyone?? Is this something i should just decide to put into the dust?

Explosions

2008-01-17T20:38:00.000-08:00

I look terrible lately.

I find it kind of funny, but I think the general populous thinks that I'm on heroine all the time.

I've always had "bags" around my eyes, but I look like they guy brad pitt beat up in fight club. You could say "rough around the edges".

But the main thing/question is, Should I keep the look? It requires basically no effort, And I kind of think that it's generally awesome.

Hmmm...

But seriously, Holistic health people, If you know what's up with that, i'd love to know!

Michael

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Now playing: 311 - reconsider everything
via FoxyTunes

Life Goal #128

2008-01-10T11:20:00.000-08:00

- tie a tie

check

Michael March

2008-01-08T00:17:00.000-08:00

April! i like what you've done with your blog! It looks supa.

EDMONTON was a lot of fun. I got to spend a little time with everyone, and almost none with myself. I journaled a lot, that's really the first time i got to do that. And read! I read "the alchemist" on the bus ride home in about an hour. It was a real page turner.

Basically i went from my door to ovencleaner's door. It was a grand adventure! We got to know each other and documented a teddy bear's average life span. Maurice was a blast as well, but i don't exactly remember what we did.........

I am having memory problems right now....so i'm "taking a break" for a while. Let the poor guys regenerate.

I went tobagganing with Anahi and some nice gentlemen, that was pretty sweet! Me and my Ex wife Steph did our Steeps tea date as well, I LOVE THAT PLACE. I bought some man tea, peppermint tea, and green tea.

I got to spend a lot of time with The italian Stallion, which was very excellent as well! PHO BHIN was by far the best. Because i got to see his family. I really like them. He has an EXCELLENT mother. She's supa.

I hammered out my memorial tattoo on the bus, and i'm looking forward to febuary to get er done.

I don't know, I'm refreshed, recharged, driven, clearer, more desisive.

One of the big highlights was of course the JAM night, It was short and sweet, like jeanie! My crew got pretty silly, so we had to get outta there. We JUST caught the last LRT and it worked out amazingly.

Bringing in the new years in a strange city with strange people and strangers was certainly a good omen. The word of the trip was "omen". Later re-enforced via the alchemist. I thought the word might be "water", but it was replaced, because water was an omen.

AND i got to sit by a cute french girl all the way home. I'M definately moving to montreal one day.

BUT, working today at sears was kind of a downer. I was filled with negative energy, but i'm not too sure it was from sears. I thought a lot about Women on this trip, and a bit of that had to do with my ex. I was getting really fustrated in my head as i went through imaginary conversations trying to tell her what happened......cause i'm not too sure that she even knows.

I'm not even too sure I know either....

But I'm happy right now. And that's pretty much all I'm sure of.

well hello!

2008-01-05T11:47:00.000-08:00

HI!

I'm going to post all about my adventures, i'm just really busy right now!

Love,

michael

Girly man

2007-12-21T13:00:00.000-08:00

This is what you get from waking and baking.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDKcevMFUCo

One of the funniest things i've ever seen. EVER

Phooey.

2007-12-18T21:39:00.000-08:00

Today, i was waiting for my bus, and was in the holiday cheer mode, so i thought to buy a video game. I am a huge gamer, i just don't have time to devote as much time as i'd like to it. So i bought CIV 4, much to the dismay of my WOW friends trying to get me hooked (maybe in january guys!)

Pretty sweeet eh?

NOPE. It won't work. After spending eight hours fussing around with my computer. I give up.

I hate when computers don't work. Now i'm grumpy.

"The" china?

2007-12-16T17:50:00.000-08:00

I took some free wrapping paper from work today, and was shocked when i read that it was "made in the China." Now i don't know about you, but i thought there was only one china, but i was wrong. See?

So I wonder which one all these toys with lead in them are coming from. Is it "the" china, or is it one of those other ones?